Today was about making textile samples, something new, which was interesting, i didn't really know how should i make one, i just played with the fabric and it seemed to go well. The day passed quick, i only had time for 2 samples. I have decided that i will apply for fashion as i enjoyed working on the body and creating 3D outcome. The tutor said that both of my 3D outcome and textile samples were good and it was up to me to decide where i want to go, so now i know for sure that the fashion is the right pathway for me. It is the only pathway that makes my head go crazy with the ideas and ideas start instantly blooming when there is a fashion project. After class was a talk from westminster university which reminded me that i should start worrying about my ucas application. All this talks and open days discourage me, hearing the number of applicants and how just a small number gets in to the uni is crazy, i think i have to change the way i am thinking and use this for my benefit, and work harder and produce more good outcome.

I started my day buy sewing the jacket, i didn't really know what the final out come should look like, because the image in my head was constantly changing, so i let my hands work without really having a specific direction to follow. I really enjoyed working on the body, and trying to make that 3D outcome. This project really helps the creativity to become more 3D. I will try to finish tomorrow the jacket. I don't really know if what i am doing is going in the right direction, i just will try to make something that represents me. With all this new learned techniques of drawing i am feeling that i am loosing who i really am, i will try to use everything that i learn and somehow put something of me in everything i create.

Today was more about getting to know the jacket that we are going work with for the rest of the week. We did a lot of illustration, and draw some details, and then started the deconstruction, i have tried some ideas on the mannequin, but i didn't really know what i am supposed to do, i didn't have any inspiration or a research to put my base on. So after class i went to the library and researched about renaissance and how the fabric was used back then, and i started to draw some ideas. Tomorrow i will use the mannequin again to see how i can use my ideas to combine it humorously with the body.

I went to class prepared to make my shoulder piece, i've brought my own materials as i thought that i am not going to need the workshop. I asked my tutors opinion on what she thinks about the materials that i have brought, she said that i should go and try to make the head piece as was my original idea, and use the metal workshop for it. At first to be honest i was scared, because i wave never worked with metal, and i thought that my lack of knowledge is going to block me form making a good outcome. I started making a smaller model, just to test the materials that i am working with. I was surprisingly good at what i was doing, and when i was making the larger piece i was more confident with myself and finally i knew what i was doing. When i finished it i sprayed it black, i decided that i am not going to use the octopus, and i am going to keep it more simple. With the 2 outcomes of today, one is going to be a head piece and the smaller one, a shoulder piece.

Today i decided to develop further a headpiece, i showed my drawings to my tutor and she thought that i should make something smaller, so i started to make a model and se how it looks. I made a small model and placed it on the shoulder, it looked quite good but still i wished that it was a head piece. I did some drawings and tried to develop some more ideas. I was told that on thursday we are going to make our final pieces using the workshop. I feel like i was more creative in the one day project than now, perhaps is because i work better when i am under pressure.

Today's project is a one week project, for today i had to bring to class 15 photos that show structure and 15 surface. I developed some ideas based on my research. Today was about developing as many ideas as we can so tomorrow we can choose one idea to develop further and make a 3D outcome, I think i was quite tensed because i didn't let my mind create freely, I was constantly thinking how the final outcome will look and how it can be made. The tutor suggested that i should create a more geometric outcome, based on architecture, so i used my research and concentrate more on the structure of the buildings. Tomorrow i will choose one idea and i will ask my tutor how the model can be made.

Today we had a detailed introduction about footwear and accessories design pathway. After watching the presentation we had to develop by the end of the class our own footwear/accessory piece. the presentation helped me a lot, it helped developing ideas based on the information i was given. Every idea that was in my head, i put it in my sketchbook, and then i choose the strongest one, i developed the idea that was representing a head piece. This headpiece shape is based on a lantern shape, the concept is that people are using a light bulb to describe that they have an idea, and a light bulb is usually placed in a lantern, so i got inspired by a lantern shape and developed it into a head piece, because our ideas are captive in our heads, so i gave it the look of a cage. The pink flowers represent our ideas, that are constantly blooming, but rarely they have the chance to bloom outside of our heads, so i put just one flower outside the headpiece, and the rest inside. Todays project seemed very interesting, because i've got information about jewellery design and footwear, and this information made me have a lot of ideas, and so i will choose to have a one week project of this pathway and see if it is still making me so creative as it did today.  I am happy with my final outcome, i think i am finally starting to know what i am doing, i am not as confused as i was in the previews weeks, and i think i am more confident with my ideas and i am not so scared to try new things, in fact i have noticed that the new information that i get, makes me more creative.

Today was the induction to 4 workshops, the wood workshop, the plastic workshop, the metal workshop and the ceramics workshops. I have learned some things about each one. I think the metal workshop was the most interesting.

I don't know why, but i didn't like today's project, maybe because i was not happy with my final outcome, or because i couldn't develop interesting ideas, perhaps if it wasn't necessarily a chair design, it would've seen more interesting, but i am disappointed with my chair design, i will research and try to develop some ideas of my own, maybe then i will succeed with this project. Others did a really good job and had very creative ideas, i just hope that i haven't lost my creativity, i am really worried as today my head was blank.

We started today's project by having an introduction about what architecture means, honestly i thought that i am going to hate today's project as i am very very bad at math, but the tutors said that we don't really need to know math as nowadays computers do that for us, another reason was that both of my parents are architects and i grew up hearing how nice it would be if i would follow my parents steps, and so i grew up hating architecture without really knowing what it is or what it means, i just knew that wanted to create a path of my own and follow nobody's steps but my own. But the introduction was pretty interesting and so was the rest of the day. Using bamboo sticks my group and i created an unusual shape and then covered some of the space with black paper, and then draw it from different positions and made it look like a building, i am quite proud of my work because it was something unexpected, although i won't admit it to my parents that i liked it, it was a good experience which made me more open minded. 

Today we had to go outside and draw some interesting buildings and then when we came back in the classroom, we had to outline some details and then put that shape into a collage and stick it in our sketchbook. After doing that, we had to choose only two shapes, and draw it on a big sheet of paper, and then cut it. Using these shapes we had to cover our classmate body and take some photos of it. Then we had to draw the photos, in different ways, after that we had to made groups of six, and combine our forms and put it only on one single model. And then we had to draw the outcome, I was the model so I couldn't draw it :( . Anyway this week was the best one so far! I'm sad that it is over.

I can't believe that there exists a day even more amazing than it was yesterday. Today was heaven on earth! Illustration day! The tutor was a genius! He thought us all these amazing techniques of illustration. I have enjoyed every single second of today! And I really like the illustrations that I've made.

I have been waiting for today for so long, finally this day has arrived. Today was the first day of fashion and textiles, and it was amazing, I still can't believe how much I have learned in only one day, all these techniques of drawing and making things! I can't find my words! It was an amazing day! I can't wait for tomorrow! I don't want this week to end. I wanna learn everything about this pathway! EVERY-SINGLE-THING!!!

Today I continued developing my yesterday project. I made a question mark on a white paper using collage, to show the way humans are thinking. Because when humans are young they are always asking questions and they are curious, but as they grow up they stop asking questions and all of the questions that they have they stay in their heads. I enjoyed this week, and i am quite curious what another project could be.

Today I wasn't so confused as I was yesterday, I understood clearly what I had to do, but i was feeling like i have no idea if what i am doing is right. Today's project was about the behavior of human being. I've wrote down 11 ideas, and then I discussed my ideas with my group mates . I developed further the "overthinking" and I thought that I should make one side of the brain black and white and the other side colourful and try to show how i think the overthinking look like. As humans we always overthink using a part of our memories and future. I have represented the memories in black-and-white because it is something dead, you can't go back and you can't change it, they stay alive only in your head, and the future in colours because you can shape it and do it as you want it. I really liked my outcome and I was encouraged by the feedback I've received.

Today we had to bring an object that is not useful on it's own. I brought a lipstick cover. Using our object we had to give it a purpose and make a model and show what human being means. The whole day I was confused as I didn't really understood how can I do that by using a lipstick cover, even though I was confused I did something I don't know if it's right or not but I just did it. I looked through the lipstick cover, and everything seemed to be in warmer colours, which made me feel like i was covered by this tube. It was like a protective second skin and most human being do that, they hide under their second skin. I think I wanted to show that when you are using the tube you can be yourself, but others see you from the outside and they see only what you choose to show them. Before today, I thought that fine art means only painting, but I am curious what is there more to discover.

Wow, today was so fun, I learned how to use a lino and letters form for printing. I really really enjoyed today, I even went to the college shop to buy my own printing stuff. I was impressed with my work and others too. I think lino can be very useful for making some interesting textile patterns.

Today I went to Tate Modern for the first time. I spend my day there. I quite liked it, it was something different than what I am used to see in art galleries. I still don't know how am i supposed to write this exhibition review, I think I am going to write it as how I would want to read an exhibition review. And for tomorrow I have to bring a black and white photo which has a meaning to me. It's hard to choose a photo, because all my photos seem to be meaningless. I think I'll go with some old photos, there must be some meaning there or at least i hope there is.

Today's project was about creating letters form. Today I really really didn't know what I was doing, I just let my hands to play with the paper. I started to roll the paper and gave it  the aspect of a spiral, which all my letters had in common. After we had to choose only one letter form, name it and write the name with it. I choose the spiral letters because I liked the view from the top. I think I could've done a better job. Others work was more interesting, and mine just wasn't. I hope Thursday I will be more creative than I was today.

Today was a very interesting day. Again for today's project we had to work in groups. We were given two lists of words and we had to choose only one word from each list. We agreed on "social and found objects". After, we discussed some ideas, we divided into two groups because one part of the team wanted to make a video and the other wanted to make a collage. Me and my group mate thought that we should photograph trash and make it look beautiful and photograph money and jewelry and make it look ugly. Our tutor was quite happy with our idea which made me feel like we were doing something right, although I still feel like I don't know what I am doing. I liked to the outcome and how we managed to show exactly what we were thinking in such short time. That poor doesn't necessarily mean that it should be ugly and rich can be ugly too not always beautiful.

Today I went to the National Gallery for the "Exhibition review". I did some sketches but very soon I got back home because it got too crowded.

Today I continued working on my project. I used the feedback from my group mates and changed some things as I thought that they were right. My tutor said that I could've done something else and not a dress just because my practitioner was a designer. But I think that what ever my practitioner was, I would still go on this pathway. I am very happy with my final outcome, and what I have learned so far in this week. But I feel like I am not learning enough, I think I have to get used to this independent way of study, but I like the freedom that comes with it, as in my high school I have never had so much freedom as I do here which I think it's brilliant because everyone is creating something different and you can see how we all started from the same point but ended doing something totally different.

Today we started developing some ideas for the "Ideas Factory" project. We did a brainstorm thing which I have found very useful. We put a lot of ideas on paper but developed only three of them. And then with the help of my group I have decided which one of these three I should develop further. I didn't really knew what should I do, but having as a practitioner Hussain, I thought that I can make something that is in movement. The material light made me think of the sun because it is the first form of light that humans have seen. And the sun made me think of nature, because after all without the sun there would be no life. The nature made me think of a butterfly, and how it is becoming a butterfly. At first it is still and it's beauty is hidden under it's cocoon, but when it opens it's wings, it's radiating with beauty. And so I drew a dress that is controlled by movement, when the model is still, the dress stays closed, but when she starts walking it starts to open just like the wings of a butterfly.

Today my group and I went to the library to do some research for the "Ideas Factory" project. We have chosen our practitioner (Hussein Chalayan), material (light)  and process (hanging), we split into groups of two, and each group researched one area. I did some research on Hussein's work. I really liked his concept and designs. After doing the research we shared with the others the information that we had gathered, and then we went to the Victoria and Albert Museum. We did some research there as well. At home I tried to combine all the information that we gathered today. I am very curious what we are going to do tomorrow.

Today I have spent my morning in the library. I have took some random designers books and had a quick look into them. Most of them had really good ideas, combination of colors and shapes, but often I saw similar designs, which really worried me, I think nowadays it's really hard to come up with something new, something never seen. I feel like the current designers are stuck, they seem to go back in time instead of moving forward. I feel the need of a renaissance in fashion design. After getting paranoid in the library I went to LFW. I didn't know what my expectations should be as i didn't really knew the work of the designer. The invitation was pretty interesting, it was a combination of an old lady using a modern phone, and I really liked that contrast. Initially I was expecting to see something with the designer's cultural background. I was surprised as the collection was something totally different than I was expecting. Although it wasn't my style, the colours were combined harmoniously. I must say I was a little disappointed as I was expecting to be amazed.

The first day

Today we were taught how to make a workflow page, we were shown around the uni, and i got to know CSM quite well, and then we had a one day project. This project was done in groups of 5, and what I really liked about working in a group was that everyone came with some ideas, and combining them we improved into a stronger one. I really liked the feedback we gave and received. The project was about combining the practitioner (Es Devlin), the material (automobile), and the process (cutting) that we were given. The outcome was a building in the shape of a car, sliced. We thought that the impact is more important then the details, that's why if it's viewed from a distance you can see the car shape, but as you go closer all you see is a lot of buildings next to each other. The main idea was to reverse the roles. Normally the car is the one that is moving and the human is not, whereas in our projects the car is still and the humans are the ones that are moving.